Currently Listening Box Car Racer Letters To God see related

I'm About To Break

Things have not been going well for me for the last six months. My sister came back home from school with the need for surgery and is now living on my couch. As for me, well lets just say i'm at whits end. I hate to admit it but I'm cutting, that agnst thing that i never wanted to be apart of, I'm doing it. I wish i could stop but i can't its like i'm addicted to it, as if i need it more than i need air right now. Life has taken a turn for the worst and if this is just the begining then i don't want to be apart of it anymore. I always looked forword to the day that i got to be an "only" child persay but now... that thought isn't even possible. I'm not blaming my sister, i love her i really do but i don't know if i can take anything anymore. Things have just been shit ever since the summer started and lets just say that it hasn't been getting better. I have no friends anymore it seems as if i have been isolating myself from them. As if i have been picking at something that didn't need to be picked at anymore. I feel like a meth addict, picking at my face and any other thing that i can get my hands on to. All i have ever wanted was just to have a life of my own not to be a shadow behind my sister, the oh so ever perfect one. I'm breaking, i'm shadering, there is nothing left of me i'm gone and lost and i can't seem to find myself. Even in school where you get to make up who you are, i can't even fake my way into happiness. I know i sound like some crazy person who is just wining about everything, and that maybe, but god if your reading this then my cry for help is working. I need help. What more can i say? I have been placed on anit- depressents but even they seem to not be able to help me. I'm going under into this black cloud that is hanging above my head. I can't find my way out of this rut that i seem to be spiraling down into. I don't even think that i cried out to God to help me He would listen to me anymore. I am just that hopless.

Currently Listening Decemberunderground By AFI Miss Murder see related

Schools out for summer

Holla well as my title says school is now out and thats great and all but now i have to go back for summer school yay me! Today was a good day we exept the whole water fight in the middle of the school thing... Grr stupid Tiffany getting me in the ear. Nothing much happening here just trying to work on my nonexistant band and write songs like crazy... I've mannaged to come up with a coulpe of good ones so far. Can't wait til i start my new job at the fort yay me i get to work with 2 of my friends all summer SWEET! well i'm going to go seeing as i have nothing else to say so later

Cooper

Currently Listening All We Know Is Falling By Paramore Franklin see related

Somethings i'll never know and i had to let them go but i'm sitting alone feeling empty

Hello all I know its been forever since I updated my site but I’ve been, well I’m not going to lie, lazy as all hell about getting on this site. So I can't wait until Thursday I am going to surprise people when I get to school on Friday because I’m going to do something that will shock you all! MUWAHAHA I might get a lip ring or a nose ring or something completely far way from putting a hole in my head... or I may not so be prepared for the shock of the year!! shah well I’m going to go now seeing as I have nothing else to say.

Oh yes I do oh Friday my guitar group got the highest rating we could I'm so happy that we pulled it together on the last song because we've had it about 2 or more months and sucked up until we got in to the practice room. happiness is emanating from my face.

well yet again out of things to say other than I’m going to go to church tomorrow and talk to some lady about my second confirmation class that I need to take because confirmation is coming up in two weeks.

anyway laters have fun, use pertection

Cooper Harris

Currently Listening E. Von Dahl Killed the Locals By The Matches Sick Little Suicide see related

Chain Me Free

Chain me free
Lose the key, right now

She was from my home town,
I'd never met her
Ditched her boyfriends
'cause I was better
She showed me pictures in her car...
pictures of the Beach Boys
and Kelly Slater
Bounced from the party
'cause the girls all hate her
She said she wants to see the stars

She's had some fast times
First times always last times
Out in the foxglove, I'm in...

Chain me free
or let it all fall
We can be all, we can be all, I said
What's in your head?
Lose the key
or please don't call
We can be all, we can be all, I said
She kissed me dead.

She calls me during Loveline
and gets the machine
She wants to see me
but not to be seen
As if she's got some mystery
Missed her life for a few weeks
before I called her
Still didn't get it,
so this is how I stalled her:
Even though you're seventeen,
I've got to tell you
you're too old for me

She's had some fast times
First times always last times
Out in the foxglove, was that?..

You're all drugged out and delirious
Don't close your eyes - are you hearing this?
I'm about to say something
that I swore I'd never say
I gotta get it out before I get away
I gotta get away before I get it out
I gotta get away before I get it out
I gotta get away before I get it out

Chain me free
Lose the key

Currently Listening Anthem By Less Than Jake Thats why the call it a Union see related

God must hate me... JUST BE FOR ETERNITY

Hello all... we WLS KICKED ASS! i had soo much fun. I can't wait to go back next year. i met alot of cool new people... like Amy: she's from Kemmerer and is the reason i love hackysack, Max: The reason no one died, Matt: Guitar Guru.. hes soo cool, Kaylee: the person who kept me singing cheers all day long, Karl: My ride home, Akina: The reason Keys are soo funny now, Josh: SOCCER ROCKS MY SOCKS, and Nate: Ahhh nate... i didn't get his email... cry.. he was soo cool... cry somemore... But Matt let me borrow his guitar and i got up in front of everyone and sang and played it was cool, next year matt and i are going to play something together. Oh... and yesterday i spent 3 hours at Taco Time. Yesterday was soo much fun.